Thanks for comparing me to Jamie!!!

That made me chuckle.............

I am in AZ to better myself and work on some issues I have had for a long time. I think you will guess............."geez , I didn't know miss tracy had a drinking problem? Shocker?"

While I still have my sense of humor, I need to really work on myself so I can be the wife and mother I used to be before the drinking got out of hand. I do not want to be the mom that always has a beer in her hand, buzzed all the time, out of control at parties (where I some time peed my pants, LOL) etc...........

I wasnt spending time with my kids or husband, always just wanted to stay in my room secretly drinking and occasionally going downstairs to make an appearance.

Although I suffer from depression, the alcohol made it worse, and I knew that. But if I blame the depression so could stay upstairs, then everybody "understood", even though they were missing out on me. The beer was more important.

The family was lonely with out me, they just dealt with it.

My rock bottom was when my son Ant wasnt availbale to drive my kids to practice so I did. I cant believe I did this, as I have many times before but not as drunk.

Nothing happened, THANK GOD...............but when I got home I was shook up at the way I was driving home, it freaked the shit out of me.............

That night I told Rick about my drinking and how bad it was. He got dissapointed and angry at first, but after dealing with it (and me) he decided to call some treatment centers, but they were all so expensive, we came up with a better solution (for now, at least)..........going to be with my mom and family in AZ........

My mom doesnt have alot of money, and Rick took all of mt finacial resources away when I came out here. My mom does not allow alcohol in the house and will be with me 24/7 for a couple weeks. So there is no way I can have access to it here.

I am going to AA meetings, going to church and bible studies, as well as having long conversation with my family.

I have a real positive additude, even though I have the shakes and sweats, but I have not even wanted a drink since I have been here.........but its only the beginning.....

I am only telling you this because you are my family, too, and this can maybe help someone else who thinks they dont have a problem and how it affects their lives, health, and family, then it will be worth it..................

Pray for me folks................

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